How did this happen? Well I had a little rendezvous with food this past weekend. I traveled home to Michigan to have a reunion with my college roommates and to celebrate my grandfather's 90th birthday. But, like a good little biotch, I took Jillian with me and I had my way with her twice in my parents living room.
Although I remained faithful to my girl Jillian - the same cannot be said for MFP. Calorie counting on the road is difficult, let alone when you are faced with cocktails with the girls and home cooking. Honestly, I don't feel like I did horrible, certainly wasn't as bad as I once was - just a few cocktails and how could I not have dessert at my grandpa's party? OH hell, there may have also been some cheesy potatoes, polish sausage, and wings mixed in there too.
Anyways, I'm annoyed. I feel like it's going to be impossible to reach and then maintain goal. In order for me to lose, I've been doing Jillian for two months, plus on most days I do a second workout. Sometimes I just go for a walk, sweat my vajazz off in hot yoga, or go for a run. Plus, up until this weekend I've been pretty diligent with tracking the calories on MFP. I just don't know how I can sustain this in the long run. Anyone else feel like this? How in the hell can I keep this up??
As I type this, I acknowledge that I might be a little dramatic and as I put my words down I am coming to my senses.
Bottom line hookstars - there are going to be ups and downs. There are going to be things worth celebrating and sometimes there's going to be stressful situations. But it's the overall picture that should speak for our journey. Overall, I am STILL down 23ish pounds. A few L-Bs may have crept up - but I do not have to let them stay. I will not let them define this journey. It's all about catching yourself before you completely fall. Don't let 2 pounds become 5 and then 10. I'm back to my routine and have access to my food. So back on my horse I go.......
And despite my fatty weekend, I did experience two NSVs. I am now wearing my extended calf boots over skinny jeans - these are my first pair of skinnys and last year there was not enough extra room in the boot for the jeans and my calf. Also, I had the confidence to test out the strength of this rope. This swing is on family land in Michigan (Up North for any Michiganders reading this) and I grew up riding it - but I hadn't done it in years! Probably like 15 years or so. Shit is so much scarier as adults but my 90 year old grandpa gave it a go so how could I not?!