Tuesday, December 18, 2012

Somebody Give me a Medal! // Jen J.

I'm home from work again today, I've been on sick leave since Friday.  Last week I was working in New Jersey and on Thursday, I woke up in my hotel room feeling awful.  Our work was done, thank God,  but I had to drive the five and a half hours back to Pittsburgh.  The trip was terrible and I had to pull off at rest stops twice to take naps because I was a felt like death. 

Please ignore the random hair across my cheek.
I took Friday off to try to get myself feeling better because my boyfriend's Christmas party was later that evening.  I really wanted to make it.  1) because I never get to dress up and I already had a banging outfit selected 2) the boyfriend and I are spending Christmas apart so I saw this as our little Christmas activity.  So I tried to rally, got all dressed up, and headed downtown to meet him.  I was fine for the party at his office but then we decided to hit up a local bar for some additional libations.  Shortly after arriving to the after party, I was miserable.  Just aching every where, freezing, and every time I swallowed it felt like I was swallowing shards of glass.  I was supposed to be the DD since I had one drink the whole night, but when we finally got out of there, I couldn't even bring myself to drive home.

The tights are houndstooth.  I am loving textured tights.

I suffered through Saturday and finally on Sunday I decided to go to the Medexpress, where they did a rapid culture test and determined I had the Strep.  I'm on an antibiotic and feeling better, but not 100%.  Eff.

It's sad and weird but every time I get sick I say to myself, "well, maybe I'll drop a few pounds."  My appetite was suppressed, but this girl never goes completely without eating.  In fact, I think I am the only girl ever to not lose weight when given eating limitations or constraints.  And I've had my fair share of them.  I had my tonsils removed when I was 21, nothing; two separate skin grafts done in my mouth, nothing; ulcerative colitis, I actually gained; and now the Strep.  I am like seriously a champion when it comes to sick eating.  Someone should give me a medal or something.  Seriously.

I guess when I am down and out I seek comfort in food.  This is evidenced by the two trips I sent my BF on to the Chinese restaurant to pick me up Wonton and Hot and Sour soup.  By themselves, the soup isn't so bad.  But of course I ate the whole friggi'n bag of fried wonton strips the soups came with.  Even though I could barely taste them.  What the heck is the point of eating something when you can't barely taste it???!!!  Perhaps it's the texture?  I don't know.  See I told you I was a champion.  I also managed to send my BF on a third trip to get me a birthday cake and butter pecan waffle cone from the local ice cream shop.  Yes, I needed two flavors.  Then there was the entire container of pineapple sherbert that I managed to eat in two days - totaling 880 calories.  My God! 

Have I mentioned, I haven't worked out since last Wednesday?  Container of sherbert and bed sores don't make a good combination.  

I know I am not saying anything new here but sometimes it's just hits me hard.  It's like whoa, the fat girl inside me hasn't gone anywhere.  She's hasn't packed up her bags and vacated the premises.  She never will.  But I've got to bounce back and put the fat girl in remission.  I've just got to.  Because the truth is, I haven't accomplished much in the wellness department over the past six weeks or so.  And that's a crying shame because I know I can be a champion at that too.

11 comments:

  1. Gahh, we are one in the same woman... I posted a similar post to this today. Except the sick part. That sucks. Feel better!

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  2. So sorry you are sick. I know that these set backs can feel huge but don't let it stop you! Get your rest so you can get well and you will be back to getting fit in no time!

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  3. Hope you feel better soon and start kicking ass again! I'm afraid my inner (and sadly still outer) fat chick won't be able to be pushed into remission until after Christmas :( Too many tempations for me.

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  4. You looked adorable for the party! ..sorry you has to take two naps on your drive home :( sickness is going around everywhere, and I pray it doesn't hit my house! We could be bff seriously , Chinese and ice cream Yum!.. tell fat girl to take permanent vacation:) feel better!

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  5. I feel ya. Minus the sick part. Just eating everything around here, including bowls of candy. Feel better soon!

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  6. Girl, I'm right there with you.. haven't really worked out myself. and I want to eat all the frickin time. Can I keek you as I stuff my face?

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  7. Even if you felt bad, you looked great!! The Strep is The Worst, but hopefully you are on the mend & will be right back at it. And maybe a little Christmas break will be good for everyone - a reminder of the good things we have missed ;)

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  8. That stupid inner at girl!! Turns out, mines still in there too :(

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  9. I hope you're feeling better....you're blog was hilarious and I can totally relate...I can pretty much eat through anything lol

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  10. I'm right there with you girl. Sickness doesn't have any effect on my weight. Gosh darn it. Positive note you looked amazing in your party outfit!

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  11. Ugh preaching to the choir sister! I can't wait until the holidays are over! That "I'll just have one cookie" seems to be turning into 5.

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